let me start things off by saying this: be vibrant, as vibrant as you can be, and do so without shame or regret.
it is so easy to get wrapped up in dimming your light for the comfort of others. i think it's safe to say that we all have done that. i know i have! for years that way of being got me nowhere. i was left extremely unhappy, unmotivated, dull and dissatisfied. but i will admit, i was nervous to allow my true colors to peek through the mundane portrait of society. being a creative and not knowing how or where i fit was sometimes extremely frightening. knowing that quitting my nine to five job would be frowned upon, or questioned to death by those close to me, was something i had to prepare for. i got to a point where i wanted to dive into the artist life full time. i was so torn between doing what was expected of me [wanted of me] vs. doing what made me happy. it took some time, about 5 years, to reroute my life walk + embark on a new journey.
the judgement for living out loud + being my true self didn't always greet me with a reward. eh, go figure! however, it was something that i needed to do to be [and stay] fulfilled in my life. we get once chance to live our best life. from the minute we are born the clock continues to tick and time proceeds to fly by us. when i really wrapped my mind around that everything else came full circle. i turned my light up to "blind em'," pulled out my paint brush and started creating the life that i wanted. i ultimately stopped apologizing for who i was and who i wanted to be.
i know, i know... it's hard not to dull or dim down in a world where things seem so routine. so unhappily routine at that. despite the potential of not being satisfied in life, we continue to go about things solely because "that is what we are supposed to do." no. we must get rid of that mindset in order to evolve and sustain our sanity. personally, i refuse to be unhappy! there are days, we all have them, when things aren't as lovely as we would like them to be. that's normal and should be accepted/expected. bad days don't mean you forget about all the good ones you've had or will have. it's important that at the end of it all we choose happiness, even through the rough patches. we have to try not to become watered down by societal expectations. avoid allowing other people to influence the intensity of your light. color outside of the lines, use as many hues as you wish and live your life to the fullest.
you don't want to wake up years down the line and still have a blank canvas under your belt. indulge in what brings you joy, as often as you can.